These past couple days I have been in my head a lot about what I want to put out there for my readers and people who follow me on Instagram. Many of you probably don’t know that the reason I started this blog is because I love to write. I actually major in English at San Diego State + I have always had a passion for style + beauty so I decided that a blog would be the perfect creative space for me to express myself. It’s been three months since I started Faithfulluxe and I have fallen in love with blogging and everything that comes with it. Seriously, I feel like I’ve found my calling in life and I am so happy that I took the leap and went with it. I always get loads of questions on IG about how to start a blog so if you guys would be interested in that I’d love to do a blog post all about it! Back to where I was going with this, I really miss writing + just putting my thoughts out there for the world so I thought I’d do that for you guys today.
I always want to share positivity + inspiration on my platforms, but it’s also so important for me to be real with you guys. These past couple days I haven’t been posting very much + to be simply put, I just haven’t been in the best mindset. Many of you wouldn’t know from following me that I have struggled with depression + anxiety since high school. In the past year, I have learned to handle it much better + in a healthy manner, but I will admit I still have days where I just don’t feel like my best self. For anyone who can relate, I just want to tell you that this is perfectly normal and a few bad days doesn’t equal a bad life. Trust me when I say that it does get better + you’re not alone. I do plan to share my story with you guys when I am ready but for now I will leave it at that.
With all of that being put out into the world, today I received a candle in the mail + it provoked me to write this blog post. I probably sound crazy at this point and I do realize I am a bit all over the place but I honestly just need to get my thoughts out there. So if you didn’t already know, Homesick is a brand that specializes in candles that vary from smelling like your hometown to your favorite childhood memory. They kindly sent me a Kentucky scented candle + I am obsessed. Sitting there looking at this candle that strangely enough does remind me of my hometown, I started to think about how far I’ve come. When I have days where it’s hard to get out of bed + put on a brave face, it’s really easy for me to get discouraged and question the entirety of my life. It’s hard to put into words but if I had to, I would explain to a friend that it’s like some days I get out of bed + get ready for the day with the kind of courage it takes to skydive. To some people, that may sound dramatic + a bit absurd but I think it’s so important to celebrate every tiny victory in our lives. To look yourself in the mirror and say, “Hey, you got out of bed today + just that is enough.” So while I was feeling discouraged, I looked down at this candle + I was reminded of all the tiny victories I’ve faced these past three years. I was reminded of that hopeful eighteen year old girl who dreamed of moving to California and doing exactly what I am doing right now. I guess with this post, I just wanted to remind not only myself, but you guys that if you’re ever feeling far from your best self, remember how far you’ve come. Remember to celebrate every tiny victory and lastly, remember that everyone has those days + you’re never alone.